| an overdue farewell... |
[Aug. 15th, 2005|04:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  numb | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sloan - people of the sky | ] |
yeah. i know its been like... almost a year since i updated and thats the way its gonna be around here. once every couple months at the most. i usually just write crap down in my book, or write a song.
anyways, just so you guys know i'm still alive, lemme fill you in on my life to date last post. february. oh right, the one when michelle flipped out on me. okay, so about 7 months...
right. i bought a third guitar, magically graduated from high school, befriended Amy again. thats when summer started... and the drugs. i can barely remember the beginning of summer now... heh. my bad.
anyways, i started working at McDonalds, and met Sarah <3. (note the emo heart) things went great, we dated, she crushed my soul, and her best friend started pursuing me... creepy.
so yeah, family is shit, personal life is shit, and i've honestly, never felt worse in my life. which explains my bad little habit of taking painkillers on a daily basis. oh, and my doctor put me back on my medication for depression, so they tell me that i feel HAPPY now.
sorry if i bored you with the crummy tales of my life |
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| I alienate myself from people because nobody understands me... |
[Feb. 10th, 2005|08:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | the same as every day... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dashboard confessional - Vindicated | ] |
today sucked. I'm thinking of transferring from ESA because i simply hate the people there. it seems like nothing is going right for me these days.
Michelle thinks i hate her because i dont talk to her and i dont care when she's upset. well, i don't really talk to anyone, and i dont really care how people feel. i'm just an asshole like that. oh dear, won't you please forgive me?
note the blatant sarcasm on that one...
hate me
-andy |
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| oh snap... |
[Feb. 9th, 2005|08:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed. as usual. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the cure - the end of the world | ] |
me & katrina went for coffee yesterday. then we smoked up behind a school. it was so cute though, because we got to a starbucks/indigo near yonge & bloor and she gave me a valentines card that she made for me. it totally sucks that she's going to cuba, because i wont get to see her for a week. which is lame.
oh well, today i had a headache when i woke up, so i went back to bed. i woke up at like 12:00 and went to school for my single afternoon class. it blew muchos balls. muy muy muchos balls...
yeah. I suck, don't I?
-andy |
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| wow. i'm a total pimp |
[Feb. 6th, 2005|10:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | staind - so far away | ] |
okay, last night was dee's birthday. we got right good and drunk. so im lying on her roomate's bed, and all of the sudden, julie comes and lays down with me. then kassandra, then dee, and probably someone else. then they start fondling me, and then the making out... yeah, great night.
by the end of the night, dan couldnt walk, dee threw up al whole bunch, and i was jonesing for a cigarette. so we left.
dan was talking to some guy on the subway, so i threw my shoe at him. I dont like dan, merely because he's Irish.
yup. last night was fun.
-ando |
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| yup. girls dont like me... |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|10:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | melee - New day | ] |
okay. its been way too long. anyways, lets see what happened. i got my new guitar the last time i wrote a new entry. since then i've traded it and got a better one (i hated the feel of the old one). yup. played a couple shows. me & elisa (sean's ex-lady) are becoming better friends. im totally starting to like her friend katrina. anyways. i've been doing alot of drugs lately. yesterday i blew of school and me & katrina went to the hotbox cafe, behind roach-o-rama in kensington. it was fun.
other than that, karen left the band, stacey is our new trumpet player. we also added a second trombone/slide trumpet player named ewan. a slide trumpet is just a REALLY small trombone. its cool.
yup, thats about it |
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| Sean king can suck my dick. |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|10:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | now go die. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Motion City Soundtrack - My favourite accident. | ] |
i dont know why the title is as such, but he should todally do it. what a douche.
i hate sean
-andy |
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| WHAT THE FUCK? |
[Feb. 1st, 2005|10:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | now go die. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Motion City Soundtrack - My favourite accident. | ] |
oh cocknobbler, its been soooooo long. yeah. i dont have much to say, but i will announce that my journal will mostly be used for trashing assholes who go to my school. and, of course, also as a teen-angst rideen place to talk about the fact that girls dont like me.
word up?
-andy |
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| new guitar. GO! |
[Sep. 18th, 2004|10:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the commitments - try a little tenderness | ] |
word. its saturday now. me & reg went to long & mcquade yesterday, and i put down 50 bucks to put an epiphone sg on layaway for the week. yeah its pretty sweet, and only 280 plus tax, what with it being used. its under a year old though, so its not REALLY used. so i pick that up on thursday when i get payed. yup, work pays off i guess. today, me & the parents went to sherway and i got a new phone because i switched from fido to bell. its sweet too. one of them slider phones. and it was free with the 2 year plan im on. then i met up with some friends and went to mandarin. then we drank in a park near bryan holt's house. good times. yup.
okay. bye then.
-andy |
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| im totally thinking that im no longer in that dilly of a pickle... |
[Sep. 11th, 2004|07:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired. now fuck off... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the trews - tired of waiting | ] |
bah. okay. i called amy last night. we kinda got into a wee bit of a fight though. i asked if she wanted to do something, but she was busy. so she offered to drop by work, but i told her not to bother. so she said that she wanted to see me today and asked why i was being such a jerk. then i told her the truth. i said that i was tired of her telling me one thing, then completely contradicting it the next second. like the way she is around me at home compared to at school or anywhere in public. so i just told her i was sick of her giving me the cold shoulder all the time and that it was really pissing me off. she said "fine" and i hung up.
yeah. i feel pretyy good about that, considering that its been building up for about 3 months now.
today i worked from 10am to 6pm. yup. eight hours of standing in dress shoes really sucks the mad cock. MAD. but its okay because i'll be getting a HUGE paycheque in a week and a half. its gonna be almost 300 bucks. that pays for almost half of my new guitar, or all of the parts to fix my computer. im not sure which to get though. UH OH! i think i sense another reader poll.
new motherboard + prcessor combo? or half of a new guitar? send me your input... now.
i had something funny to end on, but i forgot.
-ando |
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| remember when grade nines respected grade twelves? |
[Sep. 9th, 2004|08:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | alone... still... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | journey - don't stop believing | ] |
today a stupid grade nine made the VERY big mistake of telling me to fuck off, because me & Mr Oswald cracked a joke at him. so basically, he's going to be hurting tomorrow at the grade 9 welcoming barbecue. me & ben rosario are gonna niner him. swirlies and permanent markers. nothing beats it. anyways, school is back. uhh, yeah.
me & michelle saw garden state. i think it might actually be my new favourite movie.yeah. it was so good. i know i shouldn't say it, because i KNOW she'll read this, but im really starting to like her. alot. for some reason, that movie made me think about her more. im so confused now. like holy crap!
"wait! if he's duffman, i must be jesus! up up and away!"
-ando |
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| bloody hell, that was good fun... |
[Sep. 4th, 2004|10:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | alone | ] |
| [ | music |
| | big sugar - digging a hole | ] |
thursday, amy came over. im not going into ANY detail about that day.
yesterday i worked. then i went to dan's for a back to school shindig. it was amazing. we blazed like 3 joints on his patio, then hotboxed his bathroom. the majority of the crowd left at like 11:30. me, pete and asher crashed at his place. it was great.
then today, i woke up at 7:00 at dan's, went home to pick up a new change of clothes, and was at work by 10:30 am. i was there until 5:30pm which is like 7 hours which equals money. after work, i met amy at kipling at 6:30 and we went to our friend's BBQ/farewell party. it was just so we could see all of our gr 12 friends one last time. it was depressing. me & britt became best friends by the end of last year, and now she's moving to kingston to go to queens university.
amy was at both parties. it was really awkward at both parties. see the connection?
here's to old friends, and new ones to come.
-andy |
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| hooray for liquor... |
[Sep. 1st, 2004|06:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the hives - walk, idiot, walk | ] |
okay. its been a couple days eh? well, i worked on tuesday. it was my only shift in 2 weeks and was only 4 hours long. i was so pissed. then me & joey threw packs of mayo at daniel. he's a moron. then me & michelle saw the manchurian candidate. it was hard to understand, and the ending didnt fit well. then we went back to her house and watched american pie 2. its funny. im such a loser. i didnt even leave the house today. andy = sad. oh well. amy's coming over tomorrow, but just for like 3 hours, because she's working at 4. then on friday i'm going to my friend's back to schoop par-tay. im gonna get me some drunk i tell you. yeah. thats about it for this post.
-andy |
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| wow. the past 3 days were awesome! and by awesome, i mean terrible and excruciatingly painful. |
[Aug. 29th, 2004|09:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | makeshift heroes - english beat | ] |
okay. where do i start.
FRIDAY, i got back from ottawa, and went to my friends going away party. they're 2 twin brothers that are going to university in new york. i've known them for 12 years, so it was pretty hard to say goodbye to them. so we all cracked open a texas mickey of rum. thats like more than 3 litres of rum. crazy texans. but i made the big mistake of having a few beers before the hard stuff, so i ended up puking in the cab on the way home. the driver yelled at me, so i walked home. i was only 2 blocks away when we stopped.
SATURDAY, i played my triumphant return show with one size fits most. we stopped playing shows for 3 months because alex broke his hand. he plays guitar. he's a real jerk too. the night was going so well until i saw him & kat sucking face on the couch at the back of the room. yeah. it pissed me right off. i've mostly gotten over her though. it was just a bit of a shock to see her with someone who she knows is a complete asshole. the first thing he said to me when he found out about us breaking up was "so, now that you guys broke up, can i fuck her?" yeah. i punched him really hard for that one.
TODAY, me & kat went to see a movie. i told her how upset i was about what happened last night. i also told her what he's said about her being a whore and how all he ever talks about is getting drunk & laid. she seemed pretty surprised. hopefully she won't do anything stupid, but i wouldnt be surprised if she did.
amy, the girl i really want to be with, and who apparently shares the feeling, told me that she loved me. seriously. but the whole thing with her being bisexual is messing up her feelings. apparently she likes this girl zoey, but won't commit to a relationship with me despite the fact that she "loves me". its pissing me off. whats with me & girls? why do i always get in fucked up situations with them?
so yeah, i think i'll go abuse some household drugs and cry myself to sleep |
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| i swear to god, i'mg going to stab someone before school starts... |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|09:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  uhh... how about you go die? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | melee - francesca | ] |
yeah, turns out someone's spreading rumors about me sleeping with them. they told kat, who got pissed and then wouldn't tell me who told her. yeah. it sucks. oh well, on the bright side, amy's coming over tomorrow, and i leave the next day for 3 days in ottawa. so, unless i can get my dad to lend me some cash for a web cafe, i'll be offline from wednesday until friday. i have also decided to buy a different guitar. its a Tokai copy of a Gibson Les Paul. and I have also settled upon a happy medium between red and sunburst. cherry sunburst. its like red fade to yellow. its hot. which in turn will make me hot. despite its flagrantly homosexual name (love rock), i have discovered that my intense masculinity and chiseled good looks will balance everything out. cough cough.
come see my band at the kathedral on saturday. doors are at 7 and its only 8 bucks.
steve-"so you broke your hand rock climbing?"
alex-"no, i was climbing rocks."
steve-"so you broke your hand rock climbing."
alex-"no..."
-andy |
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| holy crap i'm never doing that again.... |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|07:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nauseated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | alexisonfire - accidents | ] |
yeah, so turns out that i was reall messed up last night. i don't remember going to bed or anything. usually i remember important things like that. oh well. today i did ABSOLUTELY nothing. it was depressing, but all is well now, i suppose. i didnt even use the phone today. just stayed in the basement with my music. i've decided to tell the 2 people, who participated in my colour-selection poll, to piss of because i am buying the sunburst one. its just so damn classy looking. i mean look at it. chicks dig guys with classy looking guitars right? right?
"dude, what are you looking for under there?"
"duh, my dignity... moron."
-andy |
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| why won't i just die? |
[Aug. 20th, 2004|07:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pills + liquor = sad andy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | new pornographers - your daddy don't know | ] |
bah. today was ok i guess. i woke up at 1 and amy came over around 2. that really all that happened today. i was really depressed, so i took my anti-anxiety pills and had a glass of scotch. the insane buzz is helping me right now, but i know i'll feel really low later. yeah. i think i have problems with substance abuse. and chain smoking. and drinking. i think i'm starting to like michelle again. which is good, because i like spending time with her and she's pretty damn awesome. but i need to get my "dilly of a pickle" in the relationship department worked out first.
no funny ending remark this time
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| andy - "ahhh. that goes down easy..." ryan - "yeah. just like joey's mom." |
[Aug. 19th, 2004|09:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | does andyone really care? | ] |
i did NOTHING today except working. it was fun. me & ryan made fun of joey's mom. he got mad. we laughed until he sprayed us with the cleaning spray. but yeah, i woke up at 12:00 then had to boogie on down to paramount without breakfast or lunch, and my break wasnt until 5:30. yeah. i INHALED my burger king produced excuse for a meal. it was tasty though. my manager had me stay on 2 extra hours, which means more money, but no band practise. my dad said brendan was pretty pissed about that. so i got home at 9 and talked to amy for two hours. she's coming over tomorrow to watch movies. so yeah. i figured out which guitar i'm gonna buy. its a really nice peavey hollow-body jazz guitar. im not sure which colour to get though. red or sunburst. gimme some feedback if you're reading this.
DIALING WAND! DEPLOY!
-andy |
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| ok. what the fuck? i mean honestly... |
[Aug. 18th, 2004|08:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Earth Wind & Fire - September | ] |
yup. its me. me & michelle went downtown and saw Harold and Kumar. it was funnier now that i got to see the beginning.i exchanged my distortion pedal for something not shitty. i smiled because its called th PASTRAMI overdrive. the old one was BACON AND EGGS. don't ask about the names. it was really really good to see michelle again. its been ages since i've seen her. it was fun.
don't look at me like you know me, guy...
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| a dilly of a pickle? what the fuck is that?!?! |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|10:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | disgruntled | ] |
| [ | music |
| | madness - one step beyond | ] |
my pedal broke. andy = angry. that reminds me of my friend elia. he always called me angee (not like angie, lik angry with no r in it) so he'd say angee's getting angree!!!! and i would laugh. i should call hime. he switched schools for grade 12. it made me sad. that was last year. so ya... pedal! right... basically... the company, danelectro, can go right ahead and suck my left nut. me & michelle are going downtown tomorrow so i'll see if i can exchange it at steves.
"Wait stogie... that's not food!"
"hmmm... or is it? *bites couch* mmm..."
-andy |
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| the people's republic of andy... yeah, i finally managed to annex a small country... |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|04:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  you know... that feeling... | ] |
| [ | music |
| | jethro tull - songs from the wood | ] |
okay. its been 2 days. yesterday, michelle called to inform me that she was back from camp. it was really good to hear from her. its been ages... anyways, i went downtown and bought a distortion pedal / mini guitar amp. its so cool, all orange and such. i also bought a bunch of studs so i can fix my belt now. yay... i guess... huh?
then today i woke up at like 11:00, which is early for my summer sleep patterns, but i had to call into work to see if they needed me today. as usual, the answer was no. so yeah, me & michelle talked for like 2 hours on the phone. we brought eachother up to speed on our lives since may. it was fun.
well, the night is still young, so i'll probably be back to update again tonight.
-andy |
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